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June 27
My Scarlet Heart
By Amandalyn Renee' Ferrara
That witch is my life shall soon be revealed, as my scarlet heart beats. As i stand before you, i am no more i am no less than what i have shown you.
My scarlet heart feels all the love and pain, joy and grief, that you feel.
I open my scarlet heart to you even though i have built walls around it for everyone else. you know all the right things to do and say to get me to laugh and smile each day.
You NEVER hurt me or make me cry except for tears of joy and envy. And when i cry your always there to gentally push my hair out of my face and clear the tears from my eyes. And so to you i open my scarlet heart.
Keep my kiss close to your soul, and remember these words
~From now and forever i shall be here for you, as a friend , as a mate, as a wife, and if in the stars, a soul mate. I shall be there when you need me even when we do not speak, and i'll always wish you nothing but the best in life~
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Now we have joined and loved.
We had our good times and our bad.
But we can't make it any longer for my scarlet heart is slowly shatering, and i can not pick up the peices fast enough.
And so the tall deep walls start going up, each brick harder to lift then the last.
Now my walls are up, but i have left a door with an arch, to symbolize our times, good and bad.
And i leave a round window to symbolize all of life, so you can see my love and pain, joys and grief as i have felt yours.
Now my scarlet heart is safe but i shall not deny what i may or may not feel that is yet to come, for i have not let my scarlet heart go cold and unwilling.
I shall now follow my soul and the path laid out before me.
I stop and make myself a promise.....
~ i shall always be kind and careingto those in need, and WILL stop to enjoy the life and beauty around me.~
Then i blink and the windows to my soul have closed but you still see through the window and the arch on the door to my scarlet heart.
But wait! the soft, gental, careing, and hurt windows open and the dancing child with in gets up and continues her dance called "life".
And even though the colors are blurry and dull, with each step i take things get more focused and colorfull. And so with that i start down MY winding path, smell ever rose, care for all the weak and love all the unloved-No matter what-
My scarlet heart bleeds and my soul is free thatnks to the mystry in my life.
I come across a dark covered heart, unhappy and full of grief, i feel the pain.
And so with the feelings i feel from them i look and see ~My dear friend~ all i can do and say is, reach out to hug them and say "my dear friend i have been through ,more then you can imagine, and so i ask you this, why haven't you come to me? I am here for you".
Days go by and i get a grin.
Weeks go by and i get a smile.
Mouths go by and i get a laugh....
eventually the dark goes away and all we feel is love and pain, joy and grief. For that tis life, and she dances wildly in both of us.
My scarlet heart is at ease and i sit back and watch the sunset and the wishes upon the moon raise.
I am releaved and revealed thinking of what is to come on my long ,narrow, beaten path on witch i walk.
Would You Belive Me?
If I told you, that the world will end in depression and hunger,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that hate is what fuels love,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that your eyes give you away,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that drugs are the most expensive way to hide,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that life’s biggest natural high is someone telling you that they love you,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that pain is the signal your body gives to let you know you’re still alive,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that the world rotates so everyone can experience a little light,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that breathing is the healthiest thing you could do,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that crying is the only way to feel better,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that there’s someone for everyone,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that your heart beats for someone else, and that someone else’s heart beats for you,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that there are more important things than money,
Would you believe me?
If I told you it’s ok to scream,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that suicide is the most painful way to die,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that over-the-counter medications just scream "overdose",
Would you believe me?
If I told you that the undersides of your wrists are sensitive for a reason,
Would you believe me?
If I told you ignorance is the most infectious disease,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that alcohol is the leading cause of blindness in America,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that umbrellas are just for looks,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that everyone dies by their own hand,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that it’s not losing blood that scares you, it’s what it symbolizes,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that you could tell more about a person by the condition their hands are in, than by their face,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that words are meant to only do one of three things: hurt, express love, and to make understanding,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that jawbreakers aren’t meant to break your jaw,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that make up doesn’t make you beautiful, that it just amplifies what beauty you already have,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that jewelry is gaudy and takes away from your physical beauty,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that because of fat people, there is such thing as good food,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that hunters are at the same level of sadistic as murders,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that for every person, there are at least two songs that sum up their lives,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that you’re an important character in a book somewhere,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that the sky is blue and that the grass is green only for the purpose of being able to tell up from down,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that kissing is more poisonous than swallowing battery acid,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that black and white are the only two colors that will never go out of style,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that your first kiss would be the only one you’d remember the hour before you die,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that there’s more to life than being successful,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that just being held by the person you love most is better than being kissed,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that laughing could cure any sickness,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that being disorganized is the best organization,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that stereotyping, labeling, prejudice, and being judgmental is just a sign of insecurity,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that love is too harshly judged,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that night clubs give insomniacs a place to go,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that prostitutes are people too,
Would you believe me?
If I told you it’s possible to never have anyone to call "dad",
Would you believe me?
If I told you that the secrets your parents keep from you, are the darkest ones,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that we live only to experience death,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that being in love causes the worst sense of loneliness,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that poor people do more for this country than rich people ever will,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that photography is seeing life through the eyes of the photographer,
Would you believe me?
If I told you, that most beautiful things in life are the simplest,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that depression is equivalent to freezing to death,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that anorexia isn’t just about beauty,
Would you believe me?
If I told you, that collecting memories before death is the only purpose for aging,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that there’s no such thing as a smartest person in the world,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that time is a man made concept,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that we’d live longer if clocks didn’t exist,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that not every guy out there is looking for sex, but rather love,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that you haven’t truly lived until you let yourself get caught in the rain,
Would you believe me?
If I told you that there is at least one person in this world, that would walk to ends of the earth to save your life; who would stand by your bedside at night, just to make sure you get to sleep ok; who would give everything they have, just to make sure that you never get hurt; who would take their own life, just to make sure yours isn’t taken by mistake; who would sit you down, look you straight in the eye, and tell you that they love you… and mean it; who would hold you while you cry; who would actually listen to what you had to say, no matter what it is, what time it is, or how stupid it might be, and wouldn’t criticize you for it; who would stay up all night while you sleep and just listen to you breathe, just to make sure it doesn’t stop; who wouldn’t hesitate to take the fall for you; who makes you their everything………
Would you believe me?
What Is Beauty?
By Amandalyn Renee' Ferrara
a shell of our inner selfs?
a glimps of how beautiful we really are on the inside or ,
how dark ,devious and michivious we really are?
Maybe its all a mask. a fasaud. A lie.
Or could beauty be a bit of hope the light that shines from within us to others to help them.
(and i mean true beauty if its skin deep then natural beauty no make-up or surgeries, just ourselfs)
perhaps that is what an ora is...weather dark beauty or light beauty.
Eigther way it still leaves us with "What is beauty?" "Will we ever really know?" i mean real beauty has to be something that is more than a pleasure to the eye...doesnt it? June 26 ok i geuss the stupid questions you keep asking me are coming from "question_it" but im still not going to answer them so please stop asking me things like this:Would you continue a relationship with someone who cheated on you?
IM STILL NOT ANSWERING
THANK YOU.
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